I'm Alive (I Promise)

Alright, so I realize that I have not submitted a blog entry since April, so it should be a relief (for most) to inform you that I have not died, just merely busy. Lately I have been dealing with life, which apparently includes: My job, my school, anime, gaming, Buddhism, and my boyfriend Beau. Sadly, it's becoming increasingly difficult to keep all in check, and quite honestly, I'm horrible at prioritizing anything.

I've been dating Beau for about six weeks now, all of which have been great. I met him online maybe half a year ago through some of my fur friends on Myspace, talked to him on Yahoo a few times, but never really kicked it off until about two months ago. About six weeks ago he moved down to Tampa, Florida with his heterosexual roommate from Pensacola up in northern Florida. They had both terminated their contracts with the companies they were working for and were planning on aquiring jobs in Tampa. Unfortunately, they've had many job interviews but can't seem to land anything. With time running out, I'm pushed into a situation that I don't know how to handle. His roomate is probably bailing out and moving to Texas tomorrow, and Beau may have to go live in Missippi with his dad.

This weekend was Metrocon 2009. Beau and I went with Chase and Nikki, and our fur friends Sean and Zach, who are from Boca Raton. We didn't arrive until Saturday afternoon and didn't obtain our badges until Saturday night, after the dealer's room was closed of course. On Sunday we watched the Human Chess Match, which was slightly dissapointing as they killed off everyone. I was able to buy "Hana-Kimi Volume 5" before we left for home though.

In my practice of Buddhism, all is going well. I have found myself settled in the Nichiren-Shu school of Buddhism. Last week I received a Butsudon, which is part of a personal altar, and then Beau gave me a singing bowl this week that is used during services. I've been meditating as much as possible, which with my current schedule is every other night or so. I still want to become more experienced with chanting meditation, as I run out of breath all the time.

If anyone has been seeing my posts on Facebook and Myspace about playing World of Warcraft, then now would be a great time to pretend you never saw them. I have given up WoW and I'm now playing Final Fantasy XI again as the same character, same server, and same job. I liked WoW, but FFXI just feels like home to me. I'm so glad to be able to see Brett, Natsuchii, and my other friend again in game. On my first day back I made the mistake of accidently messaging my ex-partner Steve. I saw an unfamiliar name so I messaged them saying: "Hey, do I know you? You were on my Friend's List." and received the response, "No, you don't know me. Don't talk to me." I immediatley knew who it was him after seeing his attitude and later confirmed his identity with a few other players. Meh, we all make mistakes.

As for school and work, I'm tackling the rest of my CCNA and working twenty-seven hours a week. My CCNA class feels like I'm playing survivor. We started with thirty-five students, now we're down to six including myself. I'm barely holding on by the skin on my teeth, but I think I'll get by. For now, I'll just keep moving on with a positive attitude in hopes that I will succeed.